paradox

I want to scream, and I want to cry, and I want to stay silent.

I want to drive straight on an endless road with my eyes closed and swerve but never crash.

Or let me witness a single moment in slow motion that will alter every event that follows.

I want to go deaf because my music is too loud, but I never stop hearing it.

I want to trigger grand movements that everyone overlooks..

Like being the car that inches up in still traffic that causes every car behind to follow suit without realizing..

I want to be the butterfly that was killed in the past which altered our present.

I want to sit on my roof and fall off and land back on top of it.

I want a word search listed with all of the things I’ll ever want, and a crossword encrypted with all of the things that I don’t..

But, most of all, I definitely want to not want you.

#poetry